• Happy Prime Day!! I’m so excited to be shopping all the deals today, how about you?? #ad Lucky for us, my fave @kindsnacks are on sale! You can stock up just in time for the craziness of back to school. This Caramel Almond and Sea Salt bar is sweet and salty with just 5g of sugar! It’s keeping me going while I shop all day. 😉 #kindcollective #bekindtoyourself #primeday #amazonprimeday
  • Blaire cleaned her room and made her bed today. I think it’s so cute when she makes her bed and carefully arranges her animals! She usually cleans her room once a week, Sunday is the perfect day to start fresh. The majority of her toys are in there, she gets them all set up how she wants and I just feel bad making her put them away! Do your kids pick up their toys every night?
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  • Well we don’t have a Nordstrom near us, but we do have an Aldi. Most of their summer items are on clearance and we scored this sweet pool for $7. Winner, winner. 🦄☀️ #blaireandben
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  • messy house, no makeup, and a kid who doesn’t want to wake up from his late car nap... meaning bedtime will be difficult. But what’s so different about that?! 🤪☹️ When your kids come out of your bed for the 1937 time tonight, just know you’re not alone. •
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  • If you need me I’ll be here taking a nap. JK. I’ll be in the car, curled up with my maternity pillow eating milk duds... hopefully taking a nap at some point. And I already changed into a comfy tee and some shorts that won’t button for the 6 hour drive. 🤣🤣🤣 How’s your Monday going?
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  • this. kid. He just melts me with how freaking adorable he is. Then he will go and say something like “Mama I want my binky NOWWWW” and then I remember he’s just as crazy as he is cute. 😍😝 #benjaminp
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  • Happy Fourth! It’s finally under 90° so we are out and waiting for fireworks to start! 🙌🏻 Hope you had a great day with your family. ❤️🇺🇸💥
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  • I’m 26 weeks now and this is how my every day goes.
me: 
stranger: when are you due?
me: October 8.
stranger: 😳😳😳😳
I can’t believe it’s only another 14 weeks to go! Ben was born just past 38 weeks, so it could only be another 12. 😬😬😬🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻 #photobyblaire •
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  • Blaire walked in on me doing the dishes and asked if she could take over. After, she proclaimed she was really good at it so it should be her new “chore”. They’re all yours, kid. 🧽 Do your kids do chores? Do they get an allowance? #blairep
  • This kid! He loves the water just like his sister and they’d spend all day and night at the pool if we let them. I can’t wait for the long weekend! What are your plans for the 4th? 💥 #benjaminp
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  • #ad You guys know we bought our forever home in March, after nearly a year of looking. Finding the right home is stressful! We lucked out and found one in an AMAZING neighborhood! While we love our house and love the location, there are a few things that need to be updated. Like the windows… and while they don’t NEED to be replaced immediately, we know they need to be replaced in the near future and it’s going to be a big job.
We are lucky because my dad is an electrician and super handy! But something like windows? That’s something even he suggests we leave to a professional. I’m so excited to be able to use @HomeAdvisor to match us with a professional for the job! They have been the best resource for planning and budgeting this huge project. You can find a link in my bio to learn more about using HomeAdvisor to get matched for any home improvement project, from remodels to pools to fences, they’ll help you find the right match! #HomeAdvisor
December 30, 2018

my miscarriage / pregnancy of unknown location

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positive pregnancy test

2018 was a rough year, full of ups and so many downs. Never did I guess it would end with a miscarriage. Hearing my blood test was positive and I was pregnant was the most exciting day of this year. Hands down. The nurse said my number was a little low for being 5 weeks, but not to stress.

4 days later I got back the results from my second blood draw. My numbers were rising, but slowly. I had 4 happy days of dreaming about this baby. Figuring out my due date, thinking how strange it would be to be super pregnant in summer, wondering if baby was a boy or girl, picturing Benny as a big brother. It was a long two weeks with blood draws every other day, including my birthday (Christmas Eve), spending 4 hours in the ER and had 2 ultrasounds.

I was diagnosed as “pregnancy with an unknown location” and miscarried on my own, which means I avoided the shot that starts a miscarriage to end an ectopic pregnancy. It sucks and it’s not fair… driving from Christmas to Christmas, putting in a happy face even though I was losing my baby.

So, for everyone else who is feeling depressed, anxious, upset or angry, you’re not alone. If sharing what you’re going through helps, then do it. If it helps to keep it to yourself, do it. For me, I need to share. And then I need a few days away from my feed full of cute baby bumps and adorable newborns. I need to process my grief and the loss of this baby I am losing.

I am so thankful for friends who drop everything to pick my kids up from the ER so I could concentrate on myself. Friends and family who send texts and snapchats and flowers and who check in on me every day. Right now I’m not okay, but I know I will be. I have two beautiful babies here with me and one angel baby in heaven.

Here’s to starting 2019 with hope in my heart and my love for my family stronger than ever. ❤️

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